I go by the name Adeline and im not any ordinary girl you see on the streets. I'm always an original, never a copy. ♥balloons

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I'm what you call a, mystery. Here's to the ones that love me, the losers that lost me & the lucky bastards that get to meet me ♥ I don't like "about me"s. They paint a picture colored in black and white. The way we see ourselves. It is either we are too perfect or too imperfect. The truth is, we can be very wrong. Get to know me and see for yourself. I am just Adeline Megan Gan. The occasional part-time dancer. I like collecting memories and occasional glimpses of genuine smiles . ▲

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♥ i'll make your heart jump like it was on cocaine

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i've finally come full circle.so well xoxo i had this amazing talk with bsf under the stars.there were three circles since i was 8, 14 and 17.when we were 8, we danced with temptation and played touch and run.when 14 came, sadness was still abound, and you did everything you could to make me laugh again, to make me see that life was worth living.just before i turned 18, you sent this amazing wishbox house that had a beautiful water globe and a musical box cuddled with photographs of our life before.1000 small paper stars and roses that you folded scattered inside that you hope would keep me safe and soft while i sleep, one for every night you blow with a kiss.a memory keepsake photo album i gave for your 18th, pages and pages of our life journey taken with polaroids scented with muskwood the way you liked it. a handmade birthday card that you loved so much you framed it upon photos hung upon your door.and when we serenaded the stars, music of our hearts played entwining like dancers upon the dance floor, sung through our voices, and celebrated by our instruments.hold on tight, what we are doing is dangerous. but through silent whispers, we will face the headlights together.confessions of past secrets and untold mysteries of what we did, finally told, no hidden lies. the ghosts of sins are revealed, nothing left behind. and as we danced fearlessly like two wild horses under the prairie, the summer rain falls, washing away sadness and burdens, leaving nothing behind but joy and happiness. and i realised,i want nothing more but for this moment and friendship to savour forever.
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she wants to tell you what she didnt get to say yesterday.
thanks for letting her run as far as she could, never holding her down, never discouraging her from what she wanted to do.

you never did once pass judgement, but supported her in whatever she did,because you knew it was the only way for her to learn.
even though you knew she would get hurt, even though it was killing you because you knew otherwise. you finally let her read all your hidden posts, what you did was beautiful, now she knows, she would never be able to appreciate it fully at that time, thats why you didn't show it to her.

thanks for putting up with her stubborness, and taking everything she said with a pinch of salt.
and thanks for being understanding. she never really got around to thanking you, for picking up the phone late in the night and the wee hours of morning, when she had flashbacks and couldnt sleep, and needed someone to talked to.
and thanks for not giving up on her totally when she cried and ranted at you about, you must have been sick of her whining about so much about it.
thanks for understanding her so well, making her smile much even though sometimes she felt like crap when she found out the truth in her past and that everything she thought she "loved" was one big lie.
she's glad for all the smses you sent, calls you bothered to dial, just to cheer her up after a tough day.
and she's glad that with you, she can say anything and everything she wants, without you taking offence.
she's glad that of all the people she have met and could have met, she met you.
and she never never ever wants to give you up, and she's glad you didnt too, despite all the shit you went through.
and lastly, she's glad that of all the people moving in and out of her life,
she's glad you stayed.
:)

After a while you learn the subtle difference
Between holding a hand and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't mean security,

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises

And you begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and your eyes open,

With the grace of a woman,
Not the grief of a child

And you learn to build all your roads on today,
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans
and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.

After awhile you learn that even sunshine
Burns if you get too much

So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers

And you learn that you really can endure...
That you really are strong

And you really do have worth,and you learn and learn...
With every good bye you learn.

;and to you, i think you should seriously start keeping and cherishing your friends, those that will stick by you through thick and thin not those hi bye friends. the friends, that when you cry, they dry your tears and make you feel better.those that when you are at your lowest point in your life, they come in, make you laugh, make you happy, make you stronger, and you feel like you can face anything and everything all over again.those that will drag you out of the rut hole that you are currently in, slap you awake and stab you in the front.

those that will make you stop feeling sorry for yourself, those that when you call at night, they are willing to listen to you. those that will never leave you, no matter how much you hurt them, because at that time you were hurting too. those that you can tell anything and everything, without them judging what you did was wrong or right. those that who will be there for you thru whatever, whenever. because they would have helped u moved on. instead you are still stuck in the past. in a way, i sympathise. so much to live for, yet bogged down by one setback. i thought you were stronger than that, apparently you aren't. in a way, its almost like you want to be back.

anyway, i do wish you luck in chasing her all over again. and yes yes, i knew all along.i know you love her. did you honestly think i was so dumb not to see? i may not t those things that you say, but i definitely do trust what my heart sees.what i have been saying and feeling since the s of everything was true. fyi i don't hold grudges, i don't hate you. if you ever need, you know i will be there, you just need to put aside your pride, pick up the phone and dial/sms and trust me. just like old times. talk to me. why do i still care you ask? because you, are my friend. i cherish all of my friends and in a way, i do understand the way you feel. just know that. if the day should come that you ever need someone you know that i'll follow, i'll be there. dont ever let there be a doubt in your mind cause i will remember you. i know it sounds unreal after what we have been thru, but just believe me. remember our convo back then. the promises. i will never never leave you in the lurch if you would just tell me. i'll remember you.its time you found your happiness.

"Take a good look at your life. you just found heaven but you threw it away. its safe to say, you'd do it again. But I'll be here for you my friend, just like before. you'll do it again.you're only breaking your heart like this. till it's tearing you apart and then, you're right back where you started. now you're up all night, head in your hands, how can I help u understand,it's the same old story time after time. sometimes, loving means letting go. not living in the memory of, but being stronger because of. "


because in certain times in your life, you look back and realised, the happiest things that one can have in life, is to have these certain friends that you can go crazy with, do crazy things, back each other up when troubles come, fight and quarrel, then make up, get drunk with, do stupid things over and over again, and know that they will ALWAYS be there to watch your back, watching over one another like a guardian angel. and it will be these people, that make life all the more worth living and meaningful.



i finally met my princess, missed her totally.
sat at booth to chat and catch up.
you might be going through a really rough period now, but i know how it feels like
to lose a loved one to death.
so just hang on, and be strong won't you? :)
you've always been strong, so don't you give up now to.
and as for the other matter, time will heal everything, its just a matter of
finding the right one, you know he isnt worth it if he's doing all those behind your back.
if you ever need someone, just call, i'll be there 24/7 for you.
keep smiling that beautiful smile okay pretty! :)
love you!

and K and M msn/sms me to tell me they missed me in class,
i know its that bad the new class,
but hang on ok dearies!
i wonder how im going to do without them in the next sem.

alright, i won't be blogging till the end of the month and some.
i'll be MIA-ing for awhile! :))
what with dance and outings coming up,
i'll be very busy.
and im going to try out for - - - - - all over again!
wish me luck :)

i know this is a super long post,
but well, im glad everything's over and done with,
fyi, i don't hate anyone, in fact, i think im a very lucky girl.
im glad we finally cleared the air, no more secrets, no more doubts.
*hugs*

i think this is so so so true.

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