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AdelineMG(: Pixie dust.
I go by the name Adeline and im not any ordinary girl you see on the streets. I'm always an original, never a copy. ♥balloons  adelinegan@hotmail.comView My Complete Profile♥ |
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Thursday, December 06, 2007, 9:10 PM sch sucks today. after school was fine,cia came;ate dinner at pasta mania, then went home. what i am saying here is of no reference to anybody, im not referring to anyone,let me get this clear. she really really want you to find your happiness even though after what you did to her she doesn't hold it against you. but sometimes,she can't help but wonder why did you do all this? did you really think that she was such a fool to tell you those stuff and then you took her on a rollercoaster ride. she felt that you were using her just to show it to your friends,even your parents,your siblings and after that, you just walked out of her life when you tire of this game. when you knew already you have gotten her heart. the stares she get from your friends, its totally different ,she knows. she can feel it,her instinct has always been correct. although all the warning signs were there she ignored them,cos she believed you.she really really did. you don't even recognized,the way you hit her, it will be a miracle to bring her back those jeering stares,the empty pressure. when she falls,she falls deep, she told you once. so even though she 's no longer with you, even though you no longer care she still cares for you, she treasures those memories,spent with you. and now,watching you love another,until,you have been reduced to this heartbreak state she can't help but cry in her heart for you cos she knows those feelings and how they feel. everything she does,is in the memory of you. it cut her like a knife, when you just walked out of her life. a girl with a broken heart, but she promises,no one will ever see her cry. its so hard to tell someone,anyone,cos she doesn't think anyone would understand try as they might. her friends are all that are keeping her they are her everything. and she knows, she told herself,after this she will never fall headlong so easily in love. because of what you did. although the memory,the hurt is still there. she can't risk the hurt,the pain,the endless crying all over again. she's getting over it,painfully but surely. all those memories of times together,will be kept in a special place in her heart. but twice,its enough. she's doesn't ever want to fall in love again. someday,she knows,she will love again,but until then. and up till now,she still prays, that the girl you love appreciate you,love you,and that you two would be together. watching you love and want her,cut her deep. but seeing you in this state of mind,reduced to this, even thinking of suicide cuts her even deeper. she rather you happy and with that special girl,knowing that you are happy than to be like this. |